The Me Book

This morning, Hubby, bonus boy, and I worked on his "all about me book."   This activity was emotional for me and I cannot figure out why.  It just tore me up to see those baby pictures with bonus boy and his mom.  I don't know why.  When it comes to my bonus children, I get that I am NOT Mom.  I WILL NOT replace Mom.  Maybe it's all a reminder of the life that was before (and after. . since Hubby and I were high school sweet hearts) me.  I don't know.  I feel like such a nut case at times.  I want to do the right thing for these kiddos and I know that means being strong!